Piano Drawing

'Piano Drawing' started with improvisational piano playing, followed by an improvised drawing while listening to the music.

Sometimes, it's the other way around: I do the drawing first, and then improvise on the piano while looking at the picture.

This kind of expression, or outpouring, is like breathing to me.

When I felt the limitations of language, I sought a different type of outlet.

Through the 'Piano Drawing' video series—which is another channel for my expression and another way for me to breathe—I want to share my personal efforts, learning, and growth process in looking into myself and gaining strength to carry on with daily life.

'피아노드로잉' 은 피아노 즉흥 연주를 한 후 음악을 들으면서 즉흥 드로잉을 하는 것에서 시작합니다.

아, 즉흥 드로잉을 먼저 하고 그림을 보면서 피아노 즉흥을 하기도 하지요.

이런 식의 표현 내지 표출은 저에게 숨쉬기와도 같습니다.

언어가 짧음을 느끼자 저는 다른 류의 표출을 찾게 되었습니다.

제 표현의 다른 통로이며 또다른 숨길이 되고 있는 '피아노드로잉' 영상 시리즈를 통해서, 마음을 들여다보고 힘을 얻어 일상을 이어가기 위한 개인적인 노력과 공부와 성장 과정을 여러분과 나누고자 합니다.

anger, frustration, injustice, resentment, helplessness, despair ; letting go of my heart and looking at it ; looking at his heart ; compassion, understanding, recalling memories ; reconciliation

Eating wild grapes and kiwi,wandering and playing in the green mountains— Hearing the news, and seeing the unbelievable scene, that they were attacked by a red monster, I gather my heart and pray. May the monster retreat soon,and may their recovery, peace, calm, and rebuildingtake root.

Severe indigestion. A pounding headache. Dizziness. Sudden blockage.

Aching pain, sharp and spreading through the body.

Tender care and quiet presence — someone by my side, on my side.

Acupressure therapy — Eight Extraordinary Vessels, Jianjing point.

Qigong to balance yin and yang.

The body’s slow, steady return to the whole.

A love and respect that burrow deep into the soul.

Stomach trouble. Burning, dizziness, nausea.

My place among people — never the popular one.

My place within family — the quiet gaps in ties, the absence of attention.

The way I see it all: acceptance, recognition, surrender. Should I shut the door and curl up alone?

Yet in this room, facing four walls within, an unexpected world comes

— a glimpse of peace, a flicker of hope. A quiet resolve: to trust myself and go deeper into what is most personal.

On the path we walk, hand in hand, a lone turtle—

wrapped in a sky-blue glow, dazzling, surrounded by an aura of wonder.

Speechless, drawn toward an unknown world,

where reverence coils, longing lingers, and yearning pulses.

A desperate hope— gathered hearts, joined hands, a cry for hope

echoing and echoing.

Foolishness, self-centeredness, impatience

- Conflict, fights, anger, rage, resentment

- Sorrow, helplessness, frustration, despair, resignation

- A quiet turning inward, calmness - clearer view, an honest acceptance

- Thoughtfulness, reflection, gentle memories

- Sympathy, pity, compassion

- Kindness, tolerance, an open-hearted embrace

Forceful ignorance, shamelessness, distortion, deceit, hypocrisy,

arrogance, dogma, agitation, tyranny — unending. Incompetence, stubbornness, swagger, laziness, blame, foolishness, greed — unbearable. Among them, like water and oil, we blur. We, who once tilled the soil, longing for the day flowers bloom...

Their betrayal is cowardly, dishonorable, unjust, and full of contradictions. They flatter the powerful and cling to those they once vilified and criticized, desperate to hold on to a petty position, revealing their shallow, shameless nature. The consequence? If they’re innocent or foolish, they'll accept and support you. But with vile smiles, they’ll mutter, “you thought it was real, didn't you?”

10.

Greedy and pathetic, they swagger and threaten with their pitiful tricks, mocking, deceiving, and looking down on us—the very ones who feed them and lend them support. We may be crouched down and holding our breath for now, but just wait and see...

11.

They say every finger hurts when you bite it — but maybe, just maybe, some hurt a little less. I never thought I’d have to go through this imagined goodbye yet again... In the face of your dazzling offers, cold dismissals, and heavy silences, I’m left dancing alone in a mess of desperate moves. Caught in the dizzy rhythm where anger turns to disappointment, and disappointment sinks into sorrow.

12.

This small society brings both comfort and unease. At times, we feel completely one—then suddenly, strangers. It is the safest place, and yet the most uncertain. It can be the greatest joy, then a fall into endless dark. - the place full of emptiness

13.

The firm and strong resolve back then—where have you placed it now?

Does the echo of your brave murmurs still remain, trembling in your skin and cells?

At the root of your rambling then—was it perhaps a cowardly stubbornness to avoid? And now, what kind of decision are you making?

14.

One dull day, I muttered,"I want strength." Memories of a timewhen overflowing drive and energywere hard to contain

—even drifting and fear felt like nostalgia. Between blazing passionand deeply rooted calm, I’ve already taken my step, but... A sudden spark of flame!

15.

Looking back,I learned a lot, built a lot, held so much inside me

—but in the end, there was nothing I could actually do.

I should have kept every single certificate! Learning without proof—no certificate, no record, no resume

—was neither skill nor mine to claim.

I should have made sure my name was written down somewhere! Do you see it now?

Even what you're learning and holding today might end up meaning nothing at all.

16.

Piano drawing 016 based on the number 077 from Project 4 2[sai:] 2012

17.

In yellow flower-dye and blue rippling waves,

those two, frozen in time, hold hands tight, pat each other’s back,

sharing hearts that never changed— which are steady and true. Then suddenly, beside me, my steady, gentle, kind, bear-like round one

—just the thought of the empty space you'd leave makes me collapse inside. Soon enough, the dream breaks.

Maybe it’s better… not to hope too much.