Project 4 2[sai:] 2013
This work begins with colorful Fabrics.
Thanks to my mother, who worked in the clothing industry for decades and raised her children, fabric has been an extremely familiar medium for me since childhood. Even while I was in the womb, she would prop her belly up on the workbench while cutting fabric and making clothes.
The fabric whose manifold textures you feel, and whose very temperature you sense.
Fabric that can be infinitely varied in diverse and colorful shades and forms.
A range of movements, reflecting my psychological state, dictates the selection of the fabric’s color and its ultimate shape.
The result of these actions, the combination of these fabric pieces, constitutes this project.
The keywords that make up Project 4 2[sai:] 2013 are as follows:
Language. Daily texts. Everyday emotions. Various events and relationships. A certain power beyond intention.
Fated encounters. Departures and separations. Conflict and reconciliation. Regret and lingering attachment (or Remorse and lingering feelings).
Various colors, including blue, red, yellow, white, and black.
Languages German - its Structures
syntax, verb, movement syllable, rhythm, the mouth and arms
HB55
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ALLGEMEINE ERZIEHUNG GENERAL EDUCATION |
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ETWAS MUSIKALISCHES MUSIC RELATED |
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GESUNDHEITLICHE PROBLEME PROBLEMS ON HEALTH |
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KOREANISCHE TRADITIONELLE KULTUR KOREAN TRADITIONAL CULTURES |
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KÜNSTLERISCHE/MUSIKTHERAPEUTISCHE BESCHÄFTIGUNG ARTISTICAL/MUSICTHERAPEUTICAL ACTIVITIES |
WITH/FOR
PEOPLE
HB55
2013. 07. 22.
HE had a damage on his right corneal, while training.
His eye was extremely painful but
he could not really be treated in hospitals.
He trained himself severely to recover his eye after a while.
He said it was like,
as if knives or broken glasses pierced his eyes,
and it was actually the most painful experience in his life.
5.
White Crows
2013. 07. 29.
OVER the cloudy sky in one morning,
there flied crows, barking several times.
White Crow is another name of him.
I liked the sound of the word, so-o,
which I don't think it matches his real image.
6.
The Flower
2013. 8. 1.
HE mainly takes a call from a friend in abroad,
and waits for the call at specific time in a day.
One day he was too worried for no phone,
realizing no way to be informed about her,
he wrenched severely at his heart.
Coming down,
I saw the flower,
which
I could not see
going up
(from a poem)
I saw
his sitting on the earth
with worry, disappointment, a little anger,
and love
A Seed
2013. 8. 3.
ONE sunny day,
when I washed my hair,
a thought came out,
unconsciously,
what if...
I was too honest
not to talk about it to him,
which
made him upset.
What you said
can be a trigger, a seed...
heard from him,
which made me too afraid
not to collect them
and transform
its ominousness
I began to bow again..
Come & Go
2013. 8. 7.
ONE day
he came close
with kindness and generosity
with cold sense
with a possibility
to go
one day
I myself went
with kindness and generosity
with burning sensibility
to another
not to go that far
not to come that close
somewhere in between
to get along
so so
Twisting
2013. 8. 9.
WALKING
along the Beilsteinerstrasse,
I found out
that the swinging of arms and legs
was followed by
my wish to go forwards,
(which comes from waist)
not vice versa.
I had then
arms and legs twisted largely
by my wish, my will,
my waist
Out of bad luck
2013. 8. 13.
AWKWARDLY
did he have annoying troubles
with getting a flight ticket.
Too little experience to be ripped off
too much advice everywhere without clear help
too confused info from people pretending to be kind
too much time waiting to see
too impatient to wait and inquire more
Hopefully
no more too much unpleasant things to him
no more annoyance and confusion
no more good-evil mistakes
from a person
who tries to help
also with few experiences
Therapies
2013. 8. 16.
WHAT I did/do/will do
is really
the 'music/arts therapies'?
Is it
music/arts or therapies?
Should I learn it
academically?
WHAT
am I doing
and
do I want to do
here and now?
Deureonggaengi
2013. 8. 17.
THROWING
turning
twisting
shaking
spreading
swinging
those
soft but rigid
waves
according to
Four different parts in
Deureonggaengi
Outings
2013. 08. 24.
Next to
the Queen Elisabeth Hospital
in Herzbergstrasse
being together with
WHL
Remainder
2013. 8. 19.
WHAT is left
what is gone
who is in
who is out
Time will tell...
Redundancy
2013. 8. 21.
INTENTIONS
to inform and to tell truths
made him nervous
the response was strict and clear,
which made me think deeply,
silence is gold,
balance/distance is to be kept.
In other side,
a reaction to reverse
a tiny bit of resentment
(of his, of mine)
a consideration
how to resolve it
Prayer
2013. 8. 22.
HOURS later
the plane will arrive
after getting through
several adversities
after sharing
many ideas and emotions
Have a nice trip!
Jal O Se Yo!
Mister
2013. 09. 02.
SIGHT is not always bright,
mind is not always mild
go go go
the way they do not expect
the thing they have
shined...
Rehearsals
2013. 09. 12.
WINGS of an angel
shy over the head
why not take a fly
with a waterfall on the knee
See You Sir
2013. 09. 15.
THERE was an island,
where he looked pretty
with one arm and a veil on the lip
flattering a rose over the hairs
stepping back,
there is a circle where
the face turns out
to be no expression
no border with anyone
Lines
2013. 09. 18.
SURROUNDED
by patient loves
of parents
who are grabbing their hands
to conserve their child
who is leaning on their heads
arms and hands
A brief
to my father
Gaze
2013. 09. 25.
TWO legs
are usually bended when sleeping
as if he runs so fast
that the scarf blows off
that the legs become tough
Smiling
with two eyes, one big nose and mouth,
with two different blowing ears,
sitting on a dream
waiting for a hug
Farewell To Berlin
2013. 09. 30.
Wondering
around the Metro station
in Beilsteinerstrasse
leaving
Foot/Hand tracks
on the street
getting
generous help
from my sweatheart
Another journey
would begin with
excitement/anxiety
expectation/anxiousness
Landing
2013. 10. 12.
THREE
counter-clockwise wings
blew in circles
they go in a row
counting face to face
whirling in the reality
Back
2013. 10. 25
IT
hurted him harshly
touching his back
it is easy
to get
it
he
turned back heavily
behind his head
whose back saw
that of
mine
A Plant
2013. 10. 31.
DEEP
inside the heart
a small flower is kept
with two long thin legs.
He walked in
bending the back
slightly forward
though impssible to see the face
glittering tiny rose apearred
upon his thin coat
26.
Crossing There
2013. 11. 04.
PUT
threads of memories down
which were burned to grey/blue
Seen
different ways,
they have the intervals obvious
sliding through the passages of time
leaving a plain tone of lines behind
Jal Ji Nae~
잡고 올라타다 - 갈리다
희미한 옛 꿈을 보다 - 반짝 푸르른 마음
엇갈린 시선 - 고개를 돌리다
흐릿한 모습 - 가라앉는 마음
잘지내?!
27.
Dignity
2013. 11. 15.
Not to get extra comments/lessons
even from the most beloved
who could possibly become impatient
about differences of one another
in which one should be ready to face.
Stand on our own feet
스스로
당당하기
28.
Return
2013. 12. 20
AGAIN
went back to a former place to stay
where I swore never getting back
decided
not to look back that much
determined
to go forward without reflecting
being
in the middle of
living
... must survive...
Gazing
2014. 01. 03.
On this very starting point
this year
what can be mainly
seen here
?
보자
같이 잘 어우러지기 위하여
인지과정, 학습/교습을 정리하기 위하여
엉킨 가닥을 풀기/보기 위하여
Then & Now
2014. 01. 10.
[Then] From 2010.01.10.
Cloudy Winter. ; Music. ; Heavy instruments. ;
Movings. ; Constructions. ;
Bohnholmerstrasse, Schoenstedtstrasse, Beilsteinerstrasse, Herzbergstrasse. ;
Friends. ; Yellow bicycle. ; Ticket control. ; Practice. ;
Lonliness. ; Hope. ; disappointment. ; Dreams. ;
Someday, maybe.
처음부터 거긴 흐리고 추운 동네였다.
미심쩍은 미래와 바라던 과거의 꿈을
꿈처럼 지내온 나날들
희안하게 하나 둘 이루어가고 있었다 -
여전히 춥고 어두운 겨울이었다.
[Now] From 2012.10.02.
My won. ; Cold sunny winter. ; Love and life. ; Life-companion. ; Excitement and Uncertainty. ;
Movings. ; Packings. ; Loads of work. ;
Teps. ; Applying for a job. ;
Anticipating loneliness. ; Seafood and vegetarian. ;
Childlike and innocent. ; Active, Vigorous. ; Determinations.
예기치 못한 행보와
아주 강력한 두 종류의 끈을 잡았다.
갑자기 생각이 멈춰졌다 -
생각의 틈도 없다
이곳은 춥지만 밝고 싱그러운 겨울이다.
A Checkup
2014. 01. 17.
Anxiety, Worrisome - Black
Job, Capability, Earning money - Blue
A English Test - Yellow
Mouth-practice, Workout, Exercise - White
Concerts, Wannado - Red
불안 - 검정
취직, 돈벌이 - 파랑
직면 문제 - 노랑
운동, 연습 - 하양
하고싶은 거 - 빨강
At the end, the key would be -
have a job and,
just make short-term plans and,
do very tiny specific things even for a short time,
whatever.
파랑을 깔고.
하양을 -
정해진 작은 것부터 그저 실천
A Settling
2014. 01. 29.
so-called stability,
closing little by little
to peace;
it is turning out to be true.
조금씩 가까운 평화
정착이라는 이름의
Somebody Somewhere
A Severe Cold
2014. 02. 24.
Apple-green, my favorite for now.
- Why do you take no such color?
I like watching it.
- Let us show it.
You can see it being together with others.
Talk often gives a cold a pill.
애플그린이 좋아.
- 왜 안 보여요?
응, 보는 거 좋아해.
- 보여주세요.
응, 섞여있어야 보여.
가끔 감기에 대화가 약이다.
Playing scattered
2014.03.07.
Sometimes children in my heart
out of boredom
take apart, peep around,
and get together again
to have fun
심심해진 안의 애들이 가끔
뿔뿔이 흩어져 사방을 기웃거려요
소꿉장난하러 다시 모이겠지.
Floaters
2014. 03. 26.
lying on the surface
whose belly is filled
with enthusiastic
compelling dream
which is unfulfilled
고요한 수면에 방울 솟는
강렬하고싶은
놓고싶지않은
Rubdowns
2014. 04. 04.
Caressed the belly
which was full of what
we had together, and
was told that
it should be flat again
the very next day.
찰딱찰딱 반죽하고
둥굴게 돌려 온기를 주면,
어느덧 스르륵 코를 고는
활개를 펴고 옆을 향한
Reflection 1
2014. 04. 08.
At that time in Berlin,
I knew several friends
with whom my dream came true.
포물선 그리는
돌팔매에 오르자
그 시절 하늘 아래
눈망울 여럿 -
세션, 세션,…
It Is Time
2014. 04. 19.
about time to be out -
mixing different things together,
with bigger e/motions.
뒤도 앞도 보(이)지않는
꽉채운 움직임, 웃음 -
더 크게, 더 깊이!
Tottering
2014.04.25.
fell down -
after managing to keep balance,
between is-seen and could-be-seen,
between different possibilities and
expectations
고르고서 주뼛 주뼛,
걸음걸음 문득 버거운
생각의 무게,
충돌하는 몇 갈래의 언쟁들 -
흔들흔들
춤추는 걷기.
Expression 1
2014.04.27.
To be frank
that was
UNFAIR
...
어떤 상태냐면
미워
억울해
Expression 2
2014.05.20.
hateful temperaments
with self-confidence and
mis-expectation
made a day
sore
못 생긴 성미에
몹쓸 자존심에
못난 기대에
치이고 긁힌
반나절이여..
Point After Point
2014.05.21.
there is no point
after all of trying
to make things in order -
just to let them go
흩.
지는
어.
러운
생.
나는
포.
하는
Out Of The Blue
2014.06.05.
touched the shadow
on the thinking,
too hideously broad influence
and regret
to take up the stain,
sinking below the layer.
미친 그 시절의 발자국을
듣다.
고개저어 없애기엔
영향과 후회가 하릴없어
잠깐 시간을 담그다.
Devil
2014.06.20.
To be aware in daily life
is necessary for
keeping rational,
on the other hand causing
being out to get him -
unconscious devil
삶의 긴장은
치매를 예방하지만
스트레스가
저도 모르게
해코지를 유발한다 -
무의식적 악랄함.
Please
2014.06.26.
No more complication
no more disturbance
no more hesitation
no more vanity
for my dear
to keep stable
교통정리 잘 하여
더 혼란없이
저 대로를 따라
단순 명확한 여정을
만들어가기를
바랍니다.
더 아프지 않게
소중히 소중히..
Euisang-Bong
2014.08.02.
Timing could be the A to Z
when it comes to Frankness.
The story was this,
I got a question of whether I’m happy,
which made me reflect,
causing uncertainty from inside,
then there came friction,
dug up the sentiments with a wound,
seeing an unhappy couple here.
He went to the mountain
to forget / clean.
“솔직함이 효력발휘하려면
타이밍이 중요한가봐.”
진행 순서는 이랬다 :
행복에 대한 질문,
회상 - 끄집어낸 불안,
알력,
감정을 후벼팜,
남겨진 상처,
행복하지 않은 우리.
잊기/씻기위해 그는
아침 북한산행에 올랐다.
Dejavu
2014.08.08
I’ve not been alone for a pretty long time,
without him, in a room on the second floor
in my parents’
where many traces of my past days and
uncompleted tasks have been stuck, again,
if I get on the spinning merrygoround
along a track of separated lines?
새벽 하시동.
오랜만에 혼자 지내는 사흘.
2층 서재는 예전에 완성치못한 흔적들로 가득하다.
하나로 이어지는 끈을 따라 돌고 도는
목마위에 다시 올라타는걸까..
Sharp Snap
2014.09.03.
Here is shame
which is absurd enough not to have fun
with selfness
that admits mistakes / fault
committed by oneself
별거 아닌 일로 왜 그렇게 쏘니…
겉으론 받아쳤지만
그러게요 잘못인 줄 알지만
그러니까 부끄럽고 그러니까 부인하죠
저지르는 잘못을 자인하는 자신을
즐길 줄 모르는 부끄러움.
Landscapes Here
2014.09.11.
Diversion
2014.09.27.
I left my job.
Before I fill the space—
with what was lost, or what comes next—
should I let it stay empty for a while?
Or against the loosened, restless heart,
should I tighten a rope?
SGE를 정리했다.
가감이 뭐였고 이제 뭘 보탤까
를 채우기전에
당분간 비우는것이 좋을
까 아니면
너무 느슨해져 불안한 마음 한곁에
밧줄을 바짝 키우는것이 좋을
까
Anxiety
2014.10.21.
desire for being prominent
considering taking part in the music scene in korea
though I am almost non-musician with no practice and work
with sound
The anxiety of sound
is pervading.
생각만 해봤다
이 불안감의 근원은...
Gi-il
2014.11.20.
the 3rd anniversary of the death of her,
another name of whom could be the Virgin Mary,
his dear mother,
who guided me up to here,
with bless/blame,
surrounded with bright brilliant flowers
with which I would like to wrap
around her
두렵니
그냥 걸어가
천천히 꾸준히
머리굴리지말고
같이 손잡고
얽혀 안 풀어지면
꽃을 피워봐...
Jealousy
2014. 12. 18.
aware of the looks of people
pretending not to observe deeply
uneven pulse of my own
tried to be cool without
being bothered by how they saw me
- not yet, in vain, in the end
안 가지면 안 가진대로
열망하고
가지면 가진대로
경계하니
있으나 없으나
바쁜 조바심을
뛰어넘는
중심/기준/색깔
이여...
Mal Ja
2014. 12. 21.
The point is,
Let's not think
with thinking
Mal Ja
(let's not do)
Let's not be motionless
요지는
생각 없애기 -
생각을 하지말자는 생각도
없도록
부지런히 몸 움직이기.
Unload
2014. 12. 28.
Maybe
unloading
whatever I got so far
is
necessary
for
the reality
Now
it seems that
it's the right moment
returning
my home
그려
이제 좀 차분하게
훨훨~
털어버리고
내앞의 현실로 착지하여
거쳐가는 흙길과 풀밭과
이슬 땀방울과 숨소리와
듬직하고 두툼한 저 두 손과 착한눈을
편하게 다독거리기로
다시
여행 갈 채비로
분주할
을미년 새해를
맞이하여
